QotD: It's Going To Be Different This Year
What are your resolutions for 2007?
- to be more confident.
- to take an active role in my life.
- to continue having new adventures.
- to make the most of this new life i've created here in washington, dc.
i've been doing pretty well so far in 2006 with these little goals, and for those of you who know me, you know that it's not always the easiest thing for me to do. i get really down and out about myself, and feel like i'm not good enough all the time. well, it used to be all the time. not so much anymore, but i still let it get to me sometimes.
so, i guess this isn't a new resolution but a re-affirmation of the feelings that hit me on the side of Masada in israel last year. you would think it to be kinda cliche . . . standing on the side of this 2000+ year old mountain fortress looking out over israel and jordan and have a life-altering moment of realization.
but happen it did.
it took a little while for me to figure out what i was supposed to do, but i knew after that moment that the life i was returning to in just a week would never be the same. talking with everyone on the trip, i realized that i wasn't happy in my work or my love life or my life in general. it wasn't bad, but it wasn't the kind of person i wanted to be. i knew there was more to me than just commuting and work.
a year later, my life looks nothing like it did. i've moved 300 miles from home to a new city, taken a new job, made new friends, learned new things i've never done before, returned to the stage, and [finally] written a new song. i've dated three different guys, all not the guy for me. and i've found myself enamored with a friend and i'm *still* trying to figure out if he feels the same way or has figured out how i feel or what.
2006 was really the year my life started. i stopped being miserable from the aftermath of Dan, and i started really living life for ME. people always say, "you have to learn to love yourself before you can love anyone else." and they're totally right. i really like the person i've become here. i feel the most like myself than i have in a long time. i have inspirations and desires and driving forces i never knew i had. and i've got a fantastic group of friends that i can hardly imagine being here in DC without.
the word of the year for 2007?
hopeful.
for work, for friends, for fun, for love, for life.
so hopeful.
Comments
confident, I don't know what will. Happy new year and good luck!
the move helped quite a bit. it's an ongoing process, but definitely moving in the right direction.
happy new year to you, too!
I swear sometimes you and I are alike on some levels. *hugs*
Happy New Year Hun.
A toast (ginger ale) to a new year that will continue to bring growth into our lives so we ma flourish beyond our wildest imagination!
Very good resolutions; and believe me, I know all about letting lack of self-confidence get in the way of achieving goals. Good luck with the new year! (Oh, and I'd love to hear more about your trip to Israel...that's a place I am desperate to visit.)
you and me, we're like peas in a pod sometimes.
i hope you had a lovely [gingerale] celebration last night!
i, on the other hand, had a lovely [wine, wine, and more wine] celebration last night. the one-glass-queer had two, and ohhhhh, it was fun. :) i'll tell you more about it tomorrow.
here's to 2007 being the best and most exciting year for you ever!
in a nutshell, israel is the most amazing place ever, and you MUST get there if you can. personally, i was taken by the desert, but the old cities are amazing, too. definitely go on a scheduled tour that takes you to all sorts of places . . . but if you have the time, try to find a trip that's at least 2 weeks so you have a little more time to chill. my trip was only about 10 days, and we saw the entire country . . . so there was a lot of traveling. we only stayed in one hotel two nights in a row for shabbat, in jerusalem. other than that, we stayed a new place each night. the best place we stayed was a youth hostel in the mountains, near Masada. it had these open air courtyards, and the stars were so bright at night. i could go on forever about the trip . . . i swear, it feels like yesterday. :)
Great post, erin-carly! How powerful it can be to have an honest reflection of yourself and where you are (and where you aren't) -- without getting maudlin or overly-sentimental. Good for you in your changes this past year -- inertia can be a dangerous thing and having the courage to make significant changes is wonderful. Here's to 2007!
Oh, and my guess is he's wondering similarly about whether you know how he feels about you...
and my goodness, wouldn't that be the greatest beginning to the year to find out he's going through the same thing? if only it was easier to find out. :) i'll be sure to keep everyone updated, as it's been going back and forth for a long time already. if anything does come from it, i can tell you this: it'll be big.