food for thought, part 2.

Nov 19, 2007 at 12:28 AM
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while talking with my friend colin today, i had a revelation. well, actually, we were speaking about [something - i think it may have been our cracked out dreams last night], and what came out of my mouth was not a pre-thought notion . . . in fact, i never thought it in this way ever before.

the one thing i'm missing in my life right now is affection.

what i do have is amazing and incredible.
and there are other things lacking at the moment that i could find anywhere if i really wanted.

but affection.

this cannot be found anywhere. this is something grown, something unspoken between two people who don't have to worry about what the other is thinking.

they already know.

this. this feeling, this state of being. the ability to feel someone else's heart through their touch, and to see it in their eyes. this is what i miss on the most heartfelt level. and although i miss it, i do not beg for it from anywhere, from anyone. it must be organic. it needs to 'just happen.' it cannot be forced, yet it cannot be reckoned with in any way. it needs to be . . . dare i say it . . . right.

how long am i to wait until i get to share this feeling again.

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reesie wrote:
Nov 19, 2007

Affection, human contact, emotional connection... It's one of those things that the mind supposedly can live without, but is life living without it? Isn't it what makes us human to crave and want this?

At the risk of sounding trite, I suspect that it will come for you when you least expect it. Keep giving off your vibe and someone else will be attracted to your vibe and perhaps happen to vibrate in the same frequency.

silvrwillow wrote:
Nov 19, 2007

Having been there myself, seester dearest, I do understand. It's part of what broke up my marriage. I learned that I could NOT live well without it. Sex is one thing, but simple common affection is another. Studies have proven that infants in nurseries have sickened & grown weak without touch. It's called "failure to thrive". Orphanages which are burdened with too much to handle & too little resources commonly have this problem with their children. On the other hand, babies & children who are held, touched, cared for, & interacted with usually fare much better. People in comas respond to touch & interaction.Think of all the things that are communicated without words... oh yes, we need that strong emotional human connection.